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dude.. i just ate a bagel of my own doing…got handed a donut…and now got an email about cookies in the office down the hall… fuckin’ holidays. Holidays are stressful…people want to stuff their stress and emotions deep down with food…codependents make cookies and buy candy and donuts….it’s really a vicious, dysfunctional cycle…that i am now scarfing down with a cup of coffee and gingerbread cream.
we won. yay. woo hoo. hoorah. aspirin.
I’ve been cranky for a week. Just sort of unhappy and lost. I didn’t notice it at first, but soon people started asking me if I was okay. And they asked in that way where fear leaked from the corners of their mouth. Fear that I would tell them the truth. Weird enough, the truth was “I don’t know.” I had nothing to complain about. I voted for a man. He won. As a country, we made history. I voted against a prop. It won. So huge win, huge loss. Both though are not over yet. President Elect still has to make change happen. Prop 8 is still being protested.
Everyone else seems to have bounced back from their Super Tuesday hangover. I read Obama’s site, Cooper’s site, and others and everyone seems fine now. Democrats had this hangover for a day and then Obama started running around doing stuff. Yay, we made the right choice! And then they all went to bed. Not me. Maybe I’m too old. I’m still sitting here, staring at the wall, unable to think straight, vomiting dread about our future.
And I lethargic. I get home and turn on the tv and I don’t instantly sit and stare at Olbermann, Matthews, Maddow, Cooper, King, Hannity, Colmes, etc. I still watch. Out of habit. But the news is not as pressing. And everyone’s punches are pulled. There’s no need to be mean on either side now. No need to pick apart every word and every action of these two men (or better said, three men and a woman). So here I am. Watching these tv friends who have grown apart. I’ll admit, it’s fun watching my political crush all giddy about her man. Maddow is plain adorable when she says “President Elect Obana.” But even that is not connecting me.
Not that there’s not political news to watch. The economy is still in the hole. Iraq. Iran. Pakistan. There’s a cabinet to talk about. And a dog. But I have no interest. It’s all white noise as I endeavor to listen to the latest reports.
Like a drinking hangover, I will likely hold my spinning head and hydrate for a while and then go right back to binging. But what will bring me back? What will my trigger be?
I like to cross party lines
My husband is coming home early and we’re going to watch together. I got a bottle of champagne for celebration and a bottle of vodka for consolation.
It's hard being a Republican maverick
I really hope my husband doesn’t read this…or my friends…or my coworkers….but I think I’m a Republican. I was having this wonderful conversation with a very conservative man and we seem to have voted the same on many of the props. I didn’t ask about 8. I said what I did on 8 and he didn’t offer on his vote as he was more focused on Prop 5 and staying that course. This got me to thinking. I once had a very long talk with a cop friend about political views..and HE said “You’re a Conservative. You just don’t know it.”
Could it be? I mean, sure, I’m genetically 100% hippy. I believe in gay marriage. I cried when I was a pre-teen watching Julian Lennon in concert singing Imagine. I voted Democrat my whole life, except that one time when I was experimenting with the Social Democrat party. Which makes me even MORE liberal. I’m totally okay with “spreading the wealth.” I actually like Ayers. I would rather share a meal with Hillary than Sarah.
BUT I lean pro-life. I believe in the death penalty. I am all for harsher sentencing across the board. I don’t like the homeowner bailout (wait, was that a Republican thing or a Democratic thing). And I thought that effigy of Palin was in horrible taste.
BUT BUT! I own a Sarah Palin sex doll (cuz I know the developers, get your mind out of the gutter) and defend its existence. I like Obama’s tax plan more than Mccain’s. I don’t believe in trickle down economics, I believe money trickles laterally. Rich pay rich. Middle pays middle. Poor give to poor. We should have stayed in Afghanistan, we should get out of Iraq.
BUT BUT BUT! Oh gee…maybe I’m just trying to talk myself into being a Republican for Obama cuz it seems cool.
